THIS is why i'm so exhausted. it MUST be. it's exhausting to know people around you that you love so much are experiencing very difficult times in their life. my heart is very heavy and while i'm trying not to look like it wherever i go, it doesn't change how i feel inside.
i can't share why. i can only ask you to PRAY along with me. i have been wondering WHY? it's like you can't help yourself. i know the Lord is drawing each of these loved ones to Him. for various reasons. i know He has a plan and can use it all for His glory. i'm praying He gets the glory for what He is going to do in the lives of all of them! i hate they are hurting. i'm hurting along with them. i'm hoping and praying they will seek HIM and not this world or their own desires. i can't do that for them. i can't pretend i know what i would do if i were them or dealing with the BIG stuff they are.
i can only hope there would people around me praying. praying that i would seek HIM first. praying that i would trust HIM even when it seemed impossible and felt like my world was crashing in on me. i know they feel that way. each of them in their own way. so i'm praying. a ton. i know the Lord is using this time to draw me nearer to Him too.
i'm terribly distracted. i'm trying to be a good mother in the midst of all the stresses and worries. all of it makes me long for Heaven more. if you want to pray along with me, we would ALL appreciate it. the Lord knows who you will be praying for even if you don't know the names. :) pray that i will be faithful to share God's love and truth. even hard truth if i need to. pray that the Lord will use me during this time for these sweet people i love SO VERY MUCH.
i read this today on one of my friends status updates on FB and needed it. gonna need it a ton in the next few weeks and months. gonna need to remember it my whole life. there is a reason God commands us NOT to do certain things. it's not to harm us or frustrate us, it's for our protection. He is protecting me when he tells me i am not to worry. i need to trust Him. just like that. believe Him and TRUST HIM.