Reflections of a Mom's Life

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

cried a river

just cried a river over my oldest little man. i am so at a loss. God has got to give me wisdom. i know He can and will but i need it so bad and RIGHT NOW. i don't know what to do and i don't even think anyone could tell me what to do. i really feel like the Lord is going to have to work this out.

he is so tired. he is hating school. he has only been back 2 days. he is crying through every minute of his homework and ending up angry through the process. the amount is overwhelming him and i'm already dreading it before he gets home from school. i can't seem to make it fun for him. he's just dead set against wanting to do it. period. he's being disrespectful like i've never seen before. he's never been an angry child. i'm almost in shock to see it.

i am so discouraged. i love this little guy so much. he's 7 years old for goodness sake and i feel like we are dealing with some big stuff here.

please pray for him.

please pray for me and Anthony to know how to handle all of this and come out of it stronger and more loving than we believe we can be.

he went to bed angry and it breaks my heart. i'm begging God to give me wisdom in how to reach our little man without making him more angry. i'm praying i can show him love and that he will FEEL loved. i just want to wrap my arms around him. i'm very heavy hearted tonight.

11 comments:

Janet said...

I'm praying for you Beth. One thing I know of Harrison is that he is so incredibly blessed to have you as his Mom and Anthony as his Dad. He knows he can come home and 'lose it' because he has your unconditional love. Home is a safe place for him. I remember coming home from school and just needing to release the days stresses. We do that to those we love and are most comfortable. Even as an adult, I get home and feel immediate relief and comfort. Hang in there! We are praying for all of you!

Heather said...

Oh Beth...I know I've told you this before (and even earlier this evening) but Cailey was the SAME way on her last track out last year. It made me feel helpless and like a terrible mom but even more than that it made me ready to homeschool her even more. Our relationship is SO much better now that she's home b/c she has more sleep, more time to play, more time to hang out and read the bible with us, and more time to just BREATHE. I am praying for you friend..please know there IS light at the end of the tunnel.

Mandy said...

I'm praying for you too! I know you're looking forward to homeschooling! When does this school year end for him? The Lord will sustain you...just write all this stuff down, so you have it for the book you write one day to advocate homeschooling:)

Laurel Conrod said...

We're praying for all of this to work out! You guys are good parents, very in tune to your kids...and I'm SURE that Harrison feels and knows your love and concern for him.

Sarah Kornegay said...

Praying for you guys

Heather J said...

thinking of you during this challenging time, but thank goodness Harrison has you guys for parents - parents who seek the Lord's wisdom....

Megan Penner said...

Oh, my sweet Beth. :( This broke my heart today, especially after all we talked about. I am committed to praying Harrison through this tough time. I am so grateful he has such wonderful parents who love him SO MUCH. And I know he knows how loved he is! He is a wonderful boy -- just struggling a little bit. God will work this out in his sweet life. He loves him more than anyone!

KR said...

I am so sorry, Beth!! We'll be praying for you guys. Hang in there!

The Peoples Family said...

Beth-I feel so sorry for kids in school these days. So many have cut out recess/gum, art, music-any of the extras and those poor kids sit in school all day long with out a way to burn energy. God made little men to need to burn energy. I think they give so much home work thinking it will prove they are doing all they can to educate when in fact some teachers couldn't pass the end of school tests. There needs to be a complete overhaul of the system. These poor kids sit in school all day with all that energy trapped inside of them and then they get home and they have more work to sit and do-it is enough to make a little guy blow his stack. If I remember correctly you are in one of the areas that educates all year long so they don't even get the summer to have a break. I'm praying for you as he completes the school year. Give him lots of breaks and incentives to get each thing done.

Reagan Lowe said...

Beth,
My oldest Ethan struggles in the same way. Last year I took him to his pediatrician and just cried! She cried right along with me!

There are days when I can't say boo to him without him going off! I try to feed him as soon as he gets home from school. I was thinking that his mood could be a result from low blood sugar. I don't know! And I try to let him play ASAP. The best thing I've learned is to let Wayne do his homework with him....It's one less battle for me and some bonding time for the two of them.

Being a mommy is tough business! I know you are wonderful at it!

Vonda said...

Beth, we are praying for our sweet Harrison and you too. He is such a great little boy and I absolutely know God has great things in store for him. He will get through this time I'm sure of that, and on top of it all, he is so blessed to have you and Anthony who love him so much and who are seeking God.